revitalized
The past few months I've lived each day not worrying too much about next week or next month and never next year. I've lived happily. Really happily. This is great! I do my bit of complaining, but who doesn't? I am happy to be exactly where I am for the moment. Writing this blog, reading my books.
This turn of moods could be because I'm actually in a safe place where no one is going to push me out of my house or make me take a class or teach a class or do much of anything that I don't want to. This is my peace. This is great!
I am really in love with life right now. I am in the best shape of my life and getting even more fit. I'm transforming my outside to reflect my inside. My surroundings are bright (not just because I'm in San Diego); People and things. Life is peaceful and at a steady point. This is great. I really do feel good.
Reading my last post, I was obviously feeling quite frustrated and life was going through my hands like grains of sand. I wasn't taking in the moments nor was I able to hold on to them long enough to feel. Now I think I am taking each day as mine to do with as I wish. I really think this is a new direction for me. I don't know how long this feeling will last, but I'll take it for as long as I can keep it. Not to mention the dating scene has been good to me. It's been a fun few months. (Shameless plug: Thank you Match.com). I didn't think the online thing would work for me, but it has and I've met some great people and learned a lot about myself in the process.
In analyzing this state I'm in, rather than just living it in blissful peace (I'm a scientist and a woman...I analyze everything), I believe that my overhaul on my body and mentality has been the primary reason for my amazingly good spirit. A renewed confidence in my appealing features externally perceivable and those that require more intellectual interaction has lent much to my high flying spirit. I would prescribe such a great overhaul to anyone who was feeling as low as I was.
I'm going to ride this high for what it's worth and hold on to it for as long as I possibly can...
