had to let this out
This whole post will be nothing but me writing my thoughts. WARNING: you may be bored to death, especially if you don't care about me at all.I'm upset once again, for being too good of a friend. I bend over backwards to help everyone, but particularly close friends, I feel, and get no notice when I am in need of help. Well, this just stinks! When will it be my turn? When will I get to have the coterie of friends or even the one friend that will be there for me always. Be there to bend over backwards for me?
This has always been my challenge. To feel badly, when people don't live up to the expectations I have. Many think they are too high, but I won't compromise. It's nothing I don't expect from myself. Showing concern for someone, being perceptive to their feelings, being there almost anytime they need you. It's not unreasonable. I refuse to believe that it's an unattainable goal.
I love my friends, but it hurts a lot when I don't feel loved by them in return.
I've thought (dwelled) on this for a few days now and I have reclaimed faith in life. With all it's challenges and pitfalls, there is always something good to pull out of any experience and faith in whatever my destiny is, whether laid out before me or in the making. I have faith and I do believe that things will be different for me. It will not come to me easily, but it will be worth the wait.
-Sujata
posted by Suji @ 10:05 PM
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