You wouldn't believe
How much has my philosophy has changed since...oh I don't know, Thursday night. I used to be the one waiting by the god-damn phone. Now I'm the one making the phone call. I'm the one that's living and not waiting around for someone to make my life interesting.
I feel good about this change in me. Now, I just need to find the one. ;-)
-Sujata
Finally!
My honesty...tends to scare people away. Particularly men. "Why?" you ask? I have no idea. I think I've reached the age where the people around me are old enough also to understand that being honest isn't scary. It's actually efficient. Don't laugh! It is efficient.
Take, for instance, your mom asking if you liked that hideous sweater she knitted for christmas. If you say yes...you're lying of course, but then you waste time, her time, your time and your friend's time when you complain about the hideous sweater to them. So save the time...tell your mom that it's not your style, meaning that you don't wear hideous clothing. Find your mom a new hobby. In my case, with my bad Karma, her hobby would probably end up being finding me a guy to marry. OK, OK that's another therapy session altogether. The point being, honesty == efficiency (word to my logically oriented friends).
OK so I'd say more...but I think (maybe) I've made my point. I love to get feedback about this...if there's anyone who actually reads my thoughts.
Holla back!
-Suji
I make the decisions...except when someone else does.
Everyday, I wake up knowing I'm strong and independent. That's a good thing. I live my life and make it my life everyday. Every...day. I think life would be so much easier if someone else just makes my decisions for me. Yeah, I'd like that. At least some of my decisions could be made by someone else. Maybe someone to help me with decisions. That'd be great! Then it's like taking a survey. Okay, this sounds silly, but not really. I just want to share my ideas and thoughts and hopes and wishes. Yeah just about everything.
Anyways...it'd be great. Now I just need to find that someone.
Life goes on and I still make the decisions. For now.
